I reached out to my fellow Heart Mamas. I had been having a hard time coping with the unknown and fear of what might happen. The best advice I was given by all of them, was to live day by day. Right now, the baby is healthy inside of me. Right now, I am home with my two wonderful kids. Each day will bring what it brings, but I need to live in the day and enjoy what I have right now.
It doesn't make the future any less unpredictable, but it gives me the opportunity to breathe and relax.
Meanwhile, Tehilla's kicks are strong and growing stronger every day. I never experienced the kind of kicks that I am experiencing with her, with my other pregnancies. It's as if she is letting me know that she is strong and a fighter. She will need it, to overcome what is in store for her.